Showing posts with label inspiring things. Show all posts
Showing posts with label inspiring things. Show all posts

March 1, 2012

firsts

Firsts.  Firsts are funny things.  From the overview, they appear to be monumental, exciting, and pretty much amazing. But when you examine the picture more closely, they're not as wonderful as they once seemed.  A lot of people wish they still had a pocket full of first-stickers that haven't been peeled and stuck above a word like 'kiss' or 'love.'  Because it turns out their first wasn't their last like they had once anticipated.  Instead, the first-sticker has been covered up by seconds, thirds, fourths and fifths.

I wasn't planning on going down this road, but here we are.  See, I haven't had my first kiss yet, and I've discovered that many girls find this ridiculous.  "You're sixteen and never been kissed?"  You've gotta be kidding me."  Eye roll included of course.  But then again, there are many girls that say, "Wow, I wish I was you."  I'm listening to "I Just Haven't Met You Yet" by Michael BublĂ©. Oh, the irony.  Anywho.  The thing about firsts is that you can't get them back.  Once it's done, that's it.  It can never happen again.  Firsts are special.  Just ask anyone.  It's always the first love that comes up in the conversation.  The first roadtrip.  The first... whatever it was, it's the most memorable, because, well, it's a first. But many of us don't treat firsts important.  Instead, we slap on that first-sticker like it's no big deal then quickly cover it with a second, a third, a fourth... and the thing that was supposed to be so crucial to who we'll become isn't so crucial anymore.

Yes, firsts are funny things.  Wonderful, memorable things that we take for granted.  But there's one first that you can still change.  It's called life.  You don't have stickers that say second, third, fourth, and fifth to stick on it.  Just one that reads 'first.' And in order to make the forever-first everything it's meant to be, I think we should treat all the little firsts like bigs ones. Because they all contribute to the forever-first, which is kind of a big thing.  A funny thing, life is.  A wonderful, memorable forever-first.  And it's one first you don't want to take for granted.

p.s. you should listen to "first time" by brandon heath.
gosh, i love him.

February 6, 2012

still looking for the blinding light

"Still looking for the blinding light, still looking for the reason why.  Still looking for the sun to shine to take me higher and higher.  All my life, I've been living in the darkest night.  Still looking for the blinding light to take me higher and higher."

I'm still looking for the blinding light.
The promise of a better day to come.
The hope that keeps a spark in my soul.
A smile on my face.
A skip in my step.
A beat in my heart.
I've been awakened from my sleep.
I will praise You.
I am thankful.
So thankful.
I know I don't tell You enough.
I know I don't realize how blessed I really am.
When the clouds loom over me,
And the sky goes gray and the rain begins to pour.
I forget.
I run.
I get angry at You.
I scream, "Why?  WHY?"
And You patiently listen, carrying me the whole way.
But even in the mist of the thunder, the torrent.
I'm looking for You.
I turn my face to the clouds, searching.
Wanting something more than this.
Aching for more than the ordinary.
What this world has to offer.
Though I run from You,
You never leave me.
Though I stand in the rain,
I continue to seek comfort.
Security.
Restoration.
I'm still looking for the blinding light.
For You.

lyrics from "blinding light" by switchfoot
picture via pintrest