firsts

Firsts.  Firsts are funny things.  From the overview, they appear to be monumental, exciting, and pretty much amazing. But when you examine the picture more closely, they're not as wonderful as they once seemed.  A lot of people wish they still had a pocket full of first-stickers that haven't been peeled and stuck above a word like 'kiss' or 'love.'  Because it turns out their first wasn't their last like they had once anticipated.  Instead, the first-sticker has been covered up by seconds, thirds, fourths and fifths.

I wasn't planning on going down this road, but here we are.  See, I haven't had my first kiss yet, and I've discovered that many girls find this ridiculous.  "You're sixteen and never been kissed?"  You've gotta be kidding me."  Eye roll included of course.  But then again, there are many girls that say, "Wow, I wish I was you."  I'm listening to "I Just Haven't Met You Yet" by Michael Bublé. Oh, the irony.  Anywho.  The thing about firsts is that you can't get them back.  Once it's done, that's it.  It can never happen again.  Firsts are special.  Just ask anyone.  It's always the first love that comes up in the conversation.  The first roadtrip.  The first... whatever it was, it's the most memorable, because, well, it's a first. But many of us don't treat firsts important.  Instead, we slap on that first-sticker like it's no big deal then quickly cover it with a second, a third, a fourth... and the thing that was supposed to be so crucial to who we'll become isn't so crucial anymore.

Yes, firsts are funny things.  Wonderful, memorable things that we take for granted.  But there's one first that you can still change.  It's called life.  You don't have stickers that say second, third, fourth, and fifth to stick on it.  Just one that reads 'first.' And in order to make the forever-first everything it's meant to be, I think we should treat all the little firsts like bigs ones. Because they all contribute to the forever-first, which is kind of a big thing.  A funny thing, life is.  A wonderful, memorable forever-first.  And it's one first you don't want to take for granted.

p.s. you should listen to "first time" by brandon heath.

gosh, i love him.