still looking for the blinding light

"Still looking for the blinding light, still looking for the reason why.  Still looking for the sun to shine to take me higher and higher.  All my life, I've been living in the darkest night.  Still looking for the blinding light to take me higher and higher."

I'm still looking for the blinding light.

The promise of a better day to come.

The hope that keeps a spark in my soul.

A smile on my face.

A skip in my step.

A beat in my heart.

I've been awakened from my sleep.

I will praise You.

I am thankful.

So thankful.

I know I don't tell You enough.

I know I don't realize how blessed I really am.

When the clouds loom over me,

And the sky goes gray and the rain begins to pour.

I forget.

I run.

I get angry at You.

I scream, "Why?  WHY?"

And You patiently listen, carrying me the whole way.

But even in the mist of the thunder, the torrent.

I'm looking for You.

I turn my face to the clouds, searching.

Wanting something more than this.

Aching for more than the ordinary.

What this world has to offer.

Though I run from You,

You never leave me.

Though I stand in the rain,

I continue to seek comfort.

Security.

Restoration.

I'm still looking for the blinding light.

For You.

lyrics from "blinding light" by switchfoot

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